i've learnt the greatest lesson of my life.

there is no such thing as trust. not you anyway.

the bible teaches us. do not repay evil with evil, but repay evil with good.

humans: the ones who make u happy and the ones who make you sad. how ironic.

i know. bcos i dont share.

throw a stone. thats you. thats the speed you enter into and leave my life. bigger stones spend a longer time. smaller ones are insignificant. if u hit me, i will keep you in my pocket. forever.

as u age, your circle of friends shrink. its inevitable. its really sad aint it.

lll-

the night ain't ever gonna be the same again. because u ain't gonna be there on a chilly night. absence will cause fading. //

its okay. so blessed. we are all so blessed.

christmas is the reason we can sing again. he is the reason we live. jesus gave his life. so that we may live. sacrificial love for mankind. thank you!

our cg went to settlers cafe yesterday. after organising for 3 times, it finally worked out. 10 of us. it was much fun. bee feather or beef eater isnt it the same lol.

next up is the ring. the ice ring!

today is the first day i'm staying home since alevels ended. its been busy busy, going camps, going out etc. it feels like 3months have passed altho its just been one month. when i passed by vj yesterday. i couldnt even remember studying in that school. it just fades as time passes.

ikea prawns is a must try! super delicious.

tatafornow-

WHAT...

surprises come in all shapes and sizes. big or small. rounded or squared. surprising? actually. it doesn't matter anymore. a promise can't be broken? help me.

hey went prom shopping again and bought home a beauty queen. haha! then went banner painting for syc. helped selene. or else she would take forever and ever...

i can't write today. the words just don't flow. why when it doesnt even matter anymore.

chances.. changes.. i'd choose changes.

if only its that easy to forget.. what it was like..

wash away my memories. my alevel rubbish.. everything.. pls..

jolencia is and will be a happy girl.

OVER!!! you may think its some small thing. but trust me its not.

well exams rocked. somehow or rather there was no fear. sitting in the silent hall. felt pretty amazing. this verse really made the exams a whole lot easier. "our faith lies not in the wisdom of men, but in the power of God." i'm not sure what the reference is. God spoke. even through the tough times. and it made a difference. altho it did come abit late, better late than never. i could see God at work. its amazing...

i'm really tired. and aching ALL OVER. especially my legs and my back. every time i stand up, or try to move, i go OUCH. ARGH. i need a 24 hour hibernation. today was a pleasant surprise. and very pleasant indeed. and it just gets better.

tried on prom dresses today! some are pretty. some are really expensive. me and clar were just laughing and we forgot to take pictures. haha. but theres one nice one. awaiting ownership.

got my korean vcd. ahhhh..... i noe my entry is not coherent. my exhausted brain. i've been doing silly things the whole day. i can no longer think. for now. zzzz...

no more late nights and early mornings

hee. i decided to come home today to pack my room. why? this was what happened.

on saturday

mum: (opens my room door) BANG! (all my notes and stuff behind the door) people are going to get hurt when they open the door. please clear ur room.

me: but i'm busy. i still need to study for bio. okokok i'll do it 2 days later. (in a very unwilling tone)

on sunday after church

josh: (enters room) your room is like a war zone.

me: if its a warzone then why are u in it? get out..

josh: 1, 2, 3, 4 (points ard the room) you wear 4 shorts at one time? no wonder u are so fat.

me: im just lazy to bring it to the wash.

ya thats why. i'm clearing my room now. honestly, i totally agree, my room is like a pigstye and i'm the pig. one fat pig. everyone grows fat taking Alevels. so im not alone! hehe. time for a good exercise!! haven't excercised since may. wow.

bio was so so la. i thot it was ok. most ppl said hard. dunno. the same scenario as during olevels. hey seed dormancy came out! yay. anyway, its surprising why in times of desperation and need, we don't turn to immediate friends. immediate friends in the sense those ard u at that time. like ur classmates..or whoever.

so yesterday, was totally freaking out cos of bio. its really alot.. and yeah no time. talked to clar.. laughed and chatted. then we just spotted some stuff to study la.. thats all we studied! and we skipped the whole chunk on asexual. yea its a big risk. it came out as essay but either or so hahaha. so we ain't so right after all. and its actually good to have a friend to encourage you.. a good friend whom u know u can trust. unlike vj peeps. in general. so selfish. selfish to share what they study, selfish to share their notes. why act that way? it wouldnt do any harm to you. tsktsk.

now that jc is over.. i can talk abt stuff.. my class. since i stepped into this class. i felt it. the competition. its like, we're all running a race. everyone just trying to outdo one another. and bu ze shou duan meaning find all ways to reach their goals. even bad ways. and yes they are smart. they are all so smart that i dun want to even compete with them. and they have the perfect testimonials and community activities. whatever mann.. so whats the point of having all these certs.. wow.. if u lack the care and concern.. lack the sincerity as a friend. i am not directing this at anyone.

at least. not alls gloomy! vj choir peeps are the ultimate! truely sincere and fun to be with. they help they love they truly care. we've been thru so much together. and we are not study freaks! not muggers!! YAY.

u know. i don't want to collect my results next yr. where everyone else beside you gets their 3 or 4 As. i'll ask someone. i'll leave the country. haha. 1 more paper left. bio mcq. hehe. im really happy. really. and excited too! and i'm not studying today. i wanna watch casino royale. and maybe step up. tmr!

no more late nights and early mornings

hee. i decided to come home today to pack my room. why? this is what happened.

on saturday

mum: (opens my room door) BANG! (all my notes and stuff behind the door) people are going to get hurt when they open the door. please clear ur room.

me: but i'm busy. i still need to study for bio. okokok i'll do it 2 days later. (in a very unwilling tone)

on sunday after church

josh: (enters room) your room is like a war zone.

me: if its a warzone then why are u in it? get out..

josh: 1, 2, 3, 4 (points ard the room) you wear 4 shorts at one time? no wonder u are so fat.

me: im just lazy to bring it to the wash.

ya thats why. i'm clearing my room now. honestly, i totally agree, my room is like a pigstye and i'm the pig. one fat pig. everyone grows fat taking Alevels. so im not alone! hehe. time for a good exercise!! haven't excercised since may. wow.

bio was so so la. i thot it was ok. most ppl said hard. dunno. the same scenario as during olevels. hey seed dormancy came out! yay. anyway, its surprising why in times of desperation and need, we don't turn to immediate friends. immediate friends in the sense those ard u at that time. like ur classmates..or whoever.

so yesterday, was totally freaking out cos of bio. its really alot.. and yeah no time. talked to clar.. laughed and chatted. then we just spotted some stuff to study la.. thats all we studied! and we skipped the whole chunk on asexual. yea its a big risk. it came out as essay but either or so hahaha. so we ain't so right after all. and its actually good to have a friend to encourage you.. a good friend whom u know u can trust. unlike vj peeps. in general. so selfish to share what they study. share their notes. why act that way? it wouldnt do any harm to you, only makes someone else better off. tsktsk.

now that jc is over.. i can talk abt stuff.. my class. since i stepped into this class. i felt it. the competition. its like, we're all running a race. everyone just trying to outdo one another. and bu ze shou duan meaning find all ways to reach their goals. even bad ways. and yes they are smart. they are all so smart that i dun want to even compete with them. and they have the perfect testimonials and community activities. whatever mann.. so whats the point of having all these certs.. wow.. if u really lack the care and concern.. lack the sincerity as a friend. not directing this at anyone...

at least. not alls gloomy! vj choir peeps are the ultimate! truely sincere and fun to be with. they help they love they truely care. we've been thru so much together. and we are not study freaks! not muggers!! YAY.

u know. i don't want to collect my results next yr. where everyone else beside you gets their 3 or 4 As. i'll ask someone. i'll leave the country. haha. 1 more paper left. bio mcq. hehe. im really happy. really. and excited too! and i'm not studying today. i wanna watch casino royale. and maybe step up. tmr!

the after afternoon

lemme sleep...enuff already...

A's ARE... (to be continued)